After a mental breakdown a few weeks ago, and constantly living in a bubble of self-doubt, I submitted a draft of my thesis to my PI last night.
I am DRAINED.
My thesis defense is only 10 DAYS away which is kinda crazy that these past two years have flown by in the blink of an eye! I'm currently full of nerves and overall doubtful about how I will perform during my defense. But I have to do my best to put my feelings aside, seeing that I'm not out of the woods just yet. Honestly, in these past few weeks leading up to this moment, I have realized a few things about my character that I have to change regarding how I perceive myself. Some of these things were no eyeopener, yet I have a difficult time understanding how much of an impact my negative thoughts have on my personal growth.
From this day forward, I vow to not think negatively of myself and to always keep a positive mindset. When things don't go as planned, I need to learn to relax take a step back and figure out what I can do at that moment. I also need to be more open to taking constructive criticism. If I'm honest, I take them too personally and end up feeling attacked rather then given appropriate advice. However, I need to change that adjust my mindset to make substantial progress in an academic or professional setting.
Most times people believe I have my life altogether and look up to me for that reason. They believe everything works out perfectly for me, but in reality, it has not. I too struggle with a lot of things on a personal and spiritual level that I don't necessarily like to share. And I'm working on adjusting my perception of self so that I am not too critical of myself throughout this journey. Because every day is just another opportunity to be better than the last. Striving towards your goals, and embracing your failures is all part of the process. So if you've been a bit too self-critical lately, relax. You're doing just enough at this moment to reach your goal. Remember that.
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